My concept of food is changing. My experience of food is changing. My feelings and thoughts about food are changing.
I'm so grateful for the health issues I'm facing. The pain sucks, sure. But the waking up? The growing awareness? The falling away day by day, hour by hour, mouthful by mouthful, of false beliefs about food? Awesome.
Everything is perfect.
Even as I'm still screwing things up. It ain't a straight line. Still failing and flailing in a zigzag motion. But I'm also, wafer thin layer by wafer thin layer, uncovering the truth that lies underneath the sickening weight of stored past webbed inside a human body. I'm blown away by the things that are arising, lifting, then dissipating in the waves of time, back to wherever it is that the universal tides take the funk stored in a body, mind, heart.
Plus, food is actually beginning to taste good again.
It used to take a gluten free pizza with sausage and mushrooms and extra cheese, followed by a slice of almond GF cake with lemon icing to really do it for me. Now my eyes roll back in my head at kale and collards sauteed in veg broth, doused with cider vinegar and gomasio, or roasted broccoli, misted with olive oil, salt, pepper.
I eat a lot of greens. A lot. A lotta lot. As in lotsa lotsa greens. Observe:
Breakfast - romaine lettuce and dandelion green and honeydew melon smoothie
Midmorning - same as above but with a banana thrown in
Lunch - spinach and parsley and pineapple and grape smoothie
Midafternoon - peppermint tea or almond milk with chocolate stevia
Dinner - a huge bowl filled with roasted broccoli, sauteed greens, a raw salad of avocado, cherry tomatoes, red onion with rice vinegar and umeboshi plum paste
Snack - blended: green powder w/ digestive enzymes/herbs, cardomon, water
I've been doing this for two weeks now. Every couple of days or so, I blend a scoop of herbified rice protein powder with some water and down that, too. But that's it. Any variation from this has brought back pain, swollen belly, buggy eyes, a very bad scene. Some nights I can add in one or two sesame rye crackers with earth balance olive oil "butter". But animal protein? Haven't had it in two weeks. Grains or beans, the same thing.
My body is clear. It wants plants and that's it. Just green stuff. Just beings that breathe in carbon dioxide and exhale oxygen, that bathe a digestive system in sunlight they've transformed into chlorophyll.
We all know about power animals and guides, those amazing "beings" that show up in dreamworld, in shamanic reality, but right now? My power plants are running the show. And I'm in good hands.
Surrender, surrender. To whatever Life has up next for us. For me, it's plants. For you? What is Life asking, begging, demanding you to surrender to???